I write this post with a little sadness and a little excitement too! I am officially starting work as of Wednesday. I absolutely cannot wait to be making money and having the freedom to do whatever I want with Max, not worrying about how much I'm dipping into my unemployment check. Max will head back to daycare two days a week, and spending one full weekend day with Daddy. I know he will have fun with his little friends at daycare, and he will DEFINITELY have a blast with Daddy on Saturdays. So in reality, Max will be happy. But me on the other hand will be a little bit sad. I will deal with him crying as I leave daycare, him possibly being asleep when I get home at night, sore full boobs throughout the day, and missing my little booboo more than anything. I have had almost 4 months off of work with him and its been the best 4 months we have spent together. I have made sure to do something really fun at least every other day (playground, play date, lunch date, crafting, shopping). It has been a really special bonding time for us. I would give anything to be a SAHM, but working 3 days a week is close enough for me I suppose.
In the past 4 months Max has changed right before my eyes. He is now running not walking, he is (most of the time) sleeping through the night. He is talking SO MUCH. I just love that I have been able to see every little change right up close.
There are a few things I would like him to know in this transition of Mumma going back to work:
-when I leave you,I will always come back
-if you go to sleep before I tuck you in, I promise to whisper I love you while you're sleeping and I check on you
-I promise to make our 4 full days together just as good as these past four months
-I love you to the moon and am only working to make our life that much better
This "mommy guilt" is something only moms can relate to. And don't we all know the feeling so well??? The last thing we want to do is leave our babies crying with someone else, or have them put to sleep without our hugs and kisses. BUT I just keep reminding myself of that paycheck! And all the great things I can do with that!
This transition will be difficult for sure, for both of us, but it'll also be GREAT for both of us.
Cheers to 2013 and the new beginnings for me an my family this year :)
What new things are happening for your family this year???
Xoxoxox,
Employed Mumma